this weekend, balik rumah..tgk2 my lil brother yg baru je habes SPM tgh syok dok baca novel Versus ni..iyoooo...adeq ak..xsangka! tapi, memang ak dah tahu pon..dia neh jenis mcm ni..layan novel jugaks..haha..tapi, dia xlembut oke!!!!
sedang dok ak tgk, xtgk dia baca novel tu..ak teringin jugak nk baca..yela..novel HLovate kan besh nk mamp.. romantic, berilimiah..yesh, jarang ada novel malay yg mcm ni. ni la satu-satunya hasil karya orang malay yg bole ak katakan SUPERB, MARVELOUS, JELOUS!!!!
***************previous entry (last week lagi tulis, but as a draft je*****************
hari ni, hari khamis (6/12/12):
jiwa kacau seyh. tempat keje tadi, guwa kena tegor dgn dietitian. eh, tetiba guwa. hah, lantak la. entah la, actually, guwa benci gak ngn attitude guwa yg xberapa nk baeks ni. bila kena tegor sikit, cepat sgt rasa irritate. PMS ke hape. guwa kena tegor sebab xbuat assessment dgn baek. sbb guwa mls. leceh seyh nak tnya satu2..dgn keadaan patient yg xberapa nk mengizinkan guwa untuk menginterview. SERIOUSLY, bila kena tegor tu..guwa rasa macam hampeh, haprak..semua ada. memang betol, keje dietitian ni mmg leceh. tapi, apa yg dietitian tegor tu actually betol. guwa bole je terima. tapi, entah la..tetiba sensitip byk..guwa, kalau ada something wrong..expression muka pasti cepat berubah. kompem 150% dietitian tu perasan. hadoih. susah jugak bila jadi org yg senang dikenal pasti expression mukanya bila berubah.
lepas tu, guwa actually rasa bersalah dgn dietitian tu sbb guwa buat lagak samseng. tambah satu masalah pulak, bila guwa bagi kaunseling panjang pulak. *padahal xde la lama sgt kot* uish uish..
partner guwa ada cerita lps tu, dietitian komen.
"Ayu tu byk ckp pulak. Ckp yg berkaitan sudeh la"
ok, fine. guwa sedih, keciwa, dissapointed dgn diri guwa. guwa xtahu nk lepaskan perasaan kat sape. nak ckp ngn partner guwa..dia mcm bukan jenis yg suka dgr mslh org. guwa sedih dan stress sgt. tapi, guwa ada citer jugak perasaan guwa dkt dia, tapi..entah, xpuas hati..did not get a really good response..
pastu guwa texted guwa punye member, si polan ni..kdg2 kalo guwa stress guwa kan text dia. ada la jugak response dari dia.
"muka aku kalo berubah, kontra x? bole perasan?
nak jugak guwa tahu pendapat org, sebab guwa pon xtahu mcm mana org view guwa. kalau xbaek, guwa bole cuba berubah dan improve. tapi, dia bole buat lawak bodoh plak. ok, fine..xdpt jawapan. guwa stress, baru je nk start luahkan perasaan. terbuku je la. tapi, partner guwa habaq, mmg bole perasan kalau expression muka guwa berubah ke hape. in conclusion, mesti dietitian tadi bole perasaan expression muka guwa berubah bila kena tegor. sob..sob..
ni la masalahnya, bila xde best friend, ANTI-SOCIAL mcm guwa. bila ada problem, xtahu nk luah perasaan kat sapa. nak luah kat mak..guwa bukan jenis yg suka luah perasaan kat org even kat mak sekalipon. sebab kwn yg sama2 hadapi bende same, jadi guwa pon berani la nk luahkan kalau ada any prob.
guwa rasa suffocated giler. really. sebab byk sgt bende dan prob yg guwa pendam sorang2. yg xdapat nk diluahkan kepada org lain. kdg2 mcm nak nangis pon ada. baru je pls tgk movie korea, SUNNY tajoknya. it's all about friendship. really, guwa sgt jealous bila tgk citer pasal friendship.
FRIENDS..
They will always with us during easy and hard time....
Genuine friends listen thoughtfully to our sorrows, laugh with us and celebrate our joy and victories as though they were their own.
A true friend patiently accepts our imperfections, ever ready to offer encouragement and hope during hard times.
(Luahan hati seorang anti social)
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